Honesty

So Monday and Tuesday Ross and I texted quite a bit but on Tuesday afternoon he said “hey I have a meeting I’ll be back in a hour and a half” but he never text me back. That night I noticed he did view my profile again on the singles site. I thought that was kinda odd. So today, Thursday, he texts me and says “Hey Madison-Sorry I’ve been out of touch.” So I said “oh no worries I know you have been sick and probably busy. How are you feeling now? Did you make it to the doctor? “ Then he sends me this…

“I want to be upfront with you- I just started seeing someone and so that is why I have been out of touch. I really enjoyed meeting you  and I think you are really easy to talk to (just what every girl wants to hear) so I sincerely hope that we can remain friends (as if). I just don’t want to be misleading either. Sorry if this is awkward or blunt but I thought you deserved to know.”

So first of all whoo hoo that is all a girl want is for a guy to not just stop talking to her but giver her closure and I really do appreciate that he sent me that but….yes there is always a but! He lied to me he said he was sick but in reality he was just busy and the fact that he looked at my profile again makes me sick like he was comparing our pictures and resumes to decide who he wanted to date. Ewww! Of course I know it all part of the process I just don’t want to be aware of it like that…ya know? Whatever!

So then there is Al now I know I have said I would be done with him and I wanted to tell him I was through so you may be shocked to know I have not done those things. Apparently I am a lot of talk which let’s be honest I know is true.

So I didn’t see Al for 3 weeks! Kinda crazy but I feel like he really missed me. Not enough for anything more than our runs to happen but whatever. So last night we had the most romantic run! I wish he could see it like I did or maybe he does I don’t know. We have had early morning runs, a run from his place to the temple to see the sun coming up and runs around the manmade lake that is gorgeous at night. Last night was around the lake it was spectacular! There are multiple large bridges that cross the lake and as you are running towards one of them the lights just dance across the water. It is so picturesque I love it. When the wind is blowing it looks all pixilated it is awesome! Then for the first time we ran over the bridge which has the gorgeous string of light bulbs swooping across the bridge. I have decided I want to be propsed to on the bridge I just love it so much. So we run over the bridge laughing and talking the whole way. Then we get to this mountain and that we had set out to run to the top of! I fell pretty hard before we even got to the hard part. I was behind him and and as he was telling me there was some wire on the ground I hit and took a narly fall. Got some scratches and bruises to show for it! Any ways it was a hard mountain to run very, VERY steep he got behind me and pushed me to the top. I couldn’t have done it without him. At the very top we stood for probably 10 minutes and just looked at the gorgeous city lights. Talked about different place and watched a plane land. Arg he should have kissed me and it would have been perfect!

So we will run it again next week. Every Wednesday is the plan. I know I just need ot be patient and let it happen if it may.

I am out of men for the time being which always makes me sad cuz where oh where will I meet one next? I need to focus on me and keep with my work outs and now I have school 2 nights a week just gotta keep busy and focused.