I love having a "top 10" or even a "top 5" list. I love having favorites! TV is a favorite pass time. I grew up on it. I was a latch key kid and therefore could not play outside till mom and dad were home. That was the hardest when we had a pool all summer just outside our door...sigh. I digress I found an auto biography I wrote in 6th grade and my favorite show was Home Improvement. I still to this day could watch that show all day long and Tim is my dream husband. He was a man and loved doing manly things ar,ur,oh oh oh (he he). Ya he broke a lot of things and always messed up when it came to his wife but some how in his crazy way he always fixed it. I loved his interpretations of Wilson's noble advise from over the fence and the way he always ended up showing his love to his family. I dream of having this someday minus the hot tub going througha window or the car being smashe by a huge pole but the relationship that is what was so great.
And yes I know it is fake!
So this morning I wanted to write a completely different blog, It is amazing how much can change in 10 hours of work. Hmmm I think I will call this guy Al I want him to be my Tim but for now Al works. It fits him more he is the nicest guy you will meet and looks out for those around him. Has a great sense of humor and fortunately does not have the same style as Al though....no plaid shirt, yet! We met last January but for the longest time I could never tell him or his brother apart. I don't really remember the first time we talked but it was around the summer I started seeing him more and then sometime in August I believe we became friends. We both are runners and had decided to run a half marathon.All of our conversation were about running. Then one day he started hugging me when he saw me. This is significant for me as I grew up not a hugger and struggle with people touching me or wanting to touch people. Hugging is especially hard I hate initiating them but I have grown to love receiving them, of course it depends on who it is from ;) His hugs are AmAzInG! Then after lots of us saying lets run together we finally started on Friday morning at 5:30am. **Yawn** First run was 4 miles and the next weeks we did six but Al was amazing (have i mention that yet?) he would run 3 miles to my place, run 6 miles with me then run 3 miles home and do an extra mile so he ran a total of 13 miles. Crazy!!!! I am a talker so I did a lot of talking during our runs till I would get out of breath then I made him tell stories. He said he loves my stories they were pretty cool and ranged from the suspicious death of a Catholic priest to my cousin having no rattle snake venom in him after being bit by a baby rattler to a story of a 4 year old waving hi to a bearded man who looked like Santa Clause. We talked about our families, school and work and really have gotten to know each other over the past few months. 3 weeks ago I had tickets to a concert with my best friend and her husband. I hesitated asking Al because I really liked him and usually when I ask a guy out that is the end of it and I did not want this to be so with hi, Alas everyone else was busy so I called him up and oh he was so cute and said yes.
The day of the date I ran around trying to find the perfect outfit and I did! Sexy jeans, red heels a ruffly gray blouse with a black cardigan over it. I did my hair crazy curly and wore my favorite necklace made by my grandpa. Makeup was perfect and I smelled of vanilla. I was really worried my best friend....lets call her Cate had chosen a pricey restaurant for her birthday dinner. Normally I would be fine but since I had a date I knew he would want to pay but I felt bad blind siding him with an expensive bill. So I texted him and just told him what was up and said lets just go dutch. I knew he wouldn't agree to it but I wanted him to know up front. He texted me back and said that he would like to pay for my meal if I would let him. Awwww!
Al picked me up right on time and we ended down town. Cate was positive we wouldn't need reservations because they were never busy. Guess what they were busy it was Harley night down town which made for quite the people watching experience. We went across the street to the Thai place also packed but there were street vendors so we had some delicious chicken on a stick and some egg roles. Filled me up. Al is very chill and go with the flow it was fun just walking around together chatting and laughing. Then off to the concert which was sooooo fun. He had never heard of the group but I knew every song! He made friends with the people to our left and laughed as I danced and screamed with the crowd. When it was over I did something I have never done I grabbed his arm as we walked to the car. He slowed our walk down and we just talked it was fantastical. When he walked me to the door he gave me the BEST hug yet and after he left I could still feel him holding on to me and it gave me chills.
Just for a time reference this was before the blind date in the last post so you can start to see my confusion in life.
Since that night we have ran twice. My favorite run was at night around a lake and the bridges were lit up with lights it was very romantic even through my labored breathing. This last week brought about lots of texting and hanging out. We went to a friends house and watched Elf as research for our ward Christmas party. Then he invites me over Friday night and we watched a movie oh but get this. So I was so excited to watch a movie with him and hopefully cuddle a bit and I get to his apartment and his couch is basically two recliners with a HUGE arm rest/table in the middle. Pop went that balloon! But it was fun we talked for a while afterward and had a lot of fun. The next day we had a ward activity it was a blast, three words, dodge ball trampolines, nuf said! Now this part is my interpretation so who knows if he did this on purpose but we went to a friends house it was 4 girls and 2 guys. Al and i were the last to walk in. We had driven seperatly and all the girls were on the couch there was one spot left there and one recliner open. Allie got up to look at the movies and Al (remember the nicest guy I couldn't believe he did this) stole her seat...I am thinking so we can sit together. I mean what guy doesn't take the recliner..am I right?
So here is where we are now and the most interesting part. I have a TON of guy friends. Cate will tell you it is ridiculous. I do not know how it happens but it does and I am tired of getting put in the "friends zone". Al and I were texting (dangerous I know) Monday night. I was so happy he texted me the second I was out of class. In my mind that means there could be interest that he was keeping track of the time to talk to me. Maybe that's just me. So as he text me good night I text him and ask "Al is there a possibility we could be more than friends? my track record shows I always am put in the friend zone and i do not want that to happen with you" Bold I know and maybe I shouldn't have done it maybe I should have. Still finding out the answer but a HALF HOUR later he text me and says "Madison to be honest, I don't know how to answer that" I took it rather well when I got it. He is graduating in December and spends all his time on homework. Seriously every night till ten so I know he doesn't have time for more than I have been getting. I told him that is fair but if he decided we can't be more than friends to let me know and I don't want to get in his way at right now when he is so close to being done. Very mature right. Well I went to bed feeling fine but when I woke up in the morning I was a wreck. I felt dumb and let down. to make it worse he didn't text me all day Tuesday and it wasn't till 2:11pm on Wednesday that he sent me this "Madison!! Sorry I didn't get a chance to text you yesterday, lots to do. Are you ready for the turkey trot tomorrow?" sigh....all is well.
So you see my blog this morning would have been very angry and sad but I am content right now. I don't know what he is thinking but he is not giving up and I like that! I am hopeful once again!
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