Awww Al…..

So remember my fist post where I said I want a Tim Taylor for a husband? So Al tells me today about his brother’s bachelor party that he attended last night and all the manly things they did. He mentions when they were grilling the food they would grunt……have I found my Tim? What a random thing for him to tell me and do? Sigh….:)

There is more to update but I really should be in bed right now. I will try to post more soon

a thought...

Also kinda weird when I started this post there were just too many men to keep track…kinda slowing down here but I’m not complaining. For now.....

Yuck!

 So talked to Andy tonight he is feeling better and thinks he will be better next week so we can go out… I hate the situation he has put me in. I’ve got to tell him I am not interested which does not sound like fun but then I want to tell him I know he has been seeing his ex and that is not cool but then I don’t want to tell him a thing…drama, drama, drama! I wish I could catch him doing something rather than really just hear say…makes me less annoyed with the situation till I talk to other people. My friends are more annoyed with it than I.

In good news…..I like Al a lot!!!!! Aw he is just so fun and wonderful! I cannot wait to see him again. Maybe tomorrow night but definitely Friday morning for our run!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Calm down and breath…..

Pretty sure you have realized this but patience is not one my virtues!

This weekend I let one thing, one tiny thing ruin my whole weekend. So Al and I went running Friday morning. I met at his apartment at 6am and off we went running towards the temple (quite the metaphor for my life). He had told me the run to the temple was uphill and he was right. It was a slight incline the whole way and I paid for it all weekend. As we got closer the sun was coming we could see it but just as the temple came into view the sky was full of brilliant colors. Purple, pink, orange and yellow. It was glorious and I am so glad I was able to see it. We walked around the temple for a much needed break but oh stopping makes it so much harder to start running again but we did. The run back was no fun, I was pooped but trying to look like I could do it. Which meant less talking from me but that is fine. Any ways I asked what he was up to the rest of the day he says “school project, work then a date”.

 He said it so casually I was so bummed. It was to an institute dance and I am pretty sure and everyone around me even said it when I brought it up but we are pretty sure a girl asked him. He is so busy right now I cannot imagine him thinking of even going…but I really don’t know for sure.  I talked to my sister after the run and cried a lot but I wasn’t even talking about him but I know that was the cause of it. Then I am driving to Cate’s house and one of my favorite songs comes on, “Last Christmas” by Wham no wait that is my favorite but it was actually the Glee version, not the point, but I started crying again and later cried at Cate’s house as well. Cate and I then had a crazy bad day….our moods were not really better till we ate dinner at like 8pm with her cute daughter at Applebees. It was just like the old days, just the three of us…sigh so fun.

So Saturday still grumpy. I just wanted, needed to know what was going on. Well he picked me up that night to go to our friend’s house where we made goofy videos for a Christmas party next week. It was fun, oay a lot of fun but just had that cloud over me. I knew I needed to let it go and let it be. I know Al will let me know if he isn’t feeling it. He would not lead me on so him wanted to be around me is great! Or at least that is how I should feel…but it is not.

Today at church we actually got to talk a bit…he is so fun and I am so proud of him he actually made a comment in my Sunday School class…he is kinda shy in that sense he likes to hear what others have to say and not share his thoughts but I was pretty happy about his input.

So then I text him after church because I never can talk to him afterwards he always has a ton of other people around him. My text just said “call me when you head home”. Well when he called me back I was already taking my lovely Sunday nap. So then I called him back and left a message seeing if he wanted to go to the temple lights later tonight since neither of us would be at FHE tomorrow. He never called or texted. So what do you think was going on in my crazy brain? “he listen to the message and did not want to so he just isn’t going to call me”.

I was wrong thankfully! He called me later tonight and he hadn’t seen my call (he is not a big phone person). Any hoodle we have plans to go in 2 weeks…I KNOW! Who makes plan for 2 weeks? This girl! All his big projects are this week and next week is graduation and his brother’s wedding so dude is busy I know this. We are still going running this week on Wednesday and Friday so I really feel like I can’t complain. We also are going to go to zoo lights that week…so I feel like he is interested or we wouldn’t be making plans 2 weeks out….right?

I just need to breath…..

So one more dilemma with a different guy remember Andy the 40 year old? Well he I am on good authority he is still talking to his ex and guess what she is allowed to see him. So refresher he just had back surgery last week and has been in a lot of pain for the past 3 months and although he calls me gorgeous and beautiful and flirts like he wants to be with me he won’t let me see him because he feels weak and doesn’t want me to see him that way. Any ways so apparently the ex wants him back and is trying to make it work but I don’t know what Andy thinks she is doing. Any ways the conclusion I have come to is he is playing both of us. Seriously if we were in a relationship what would happen if he was hurt again I would be banned from seeing him? It is hard I am too nice I know I just want to phase him out basically but he just had the surgery so I feel I can’t completely because we were friends first and he is going through a tough time but how do I get him to realize I’ve got other stuff going on? Ya know? It is just a weird situation!

Hmmmmm……….

.So you know what sucks? When you really like someone but they haven’t told you how they feel yet. He knows how I feel…fair? I think not. I know I am as impatient as they come.

So Al and I went running last night. Oh it was so late but we haven’t really hung out or talked, other than texting in a week and a half so there was no stopping me.  It also was the first time being around each other since me telling him I didn’t want to be put in the friend zone. It was a bit awkward but I think more for him than me. I could tell he was acting weird but once we started running it was over. We ran around a nearby lake, over and under some bridges that were lit up and the lights sparkled on the water. The water was very still, it was gorgeous. I know you are thinking who goes running late at night in the winter but the temperature was perfect. I was wearing a t-shirt and capris and he had on shorts and we were not cold till we had to stop! Seriously all day today I kept thinking about funny things he said or did and I couldn’t stop smiling. I have so much fun with him…but does he feel the same? Going into the run I was so tired I even had a headache but like I said nothing was going to stop me from seeing him. I felt great on the run but after 4 miles I was done and we were at the hilliest part. I started walking and he got behind me and placed his hands on my shoulders and started running. It was probably really funny to see. Once he would stop I would stop so he would do it again then he started massaging my shoulders as we ran up a hill!!! Hilarious but it felt good. Definitely the way to run, we should start a new trend….massage running! We finally started to cool down then we chatted for a while at our cars. I didn’t want to leave but it was sooooo late and I was beat.

I thought for sure today would be the worst day ever with my lack of sleep but it was a pretty great day and I cannot, CANNOT wait for our early morning run tomorrow. I am meeting him at his house and we are running 3.5 miles to the temple at sunrise….awwww so romantic (but probably just in my mind) then 3.5 miles back. What a great way to start the day!