So I know everyone blogs but usually it only about the fun things in life! Love can be fun when you find the right person but this is going to be a real girls journey for love.This blog is real. It is about me and my "love" life or lack there of for that matter. I am 29 years old and have never been kissed. Yup you read that right NEVER been kissed. NEVER held a guys hand, NEVER cuddled during a movie nothing! 2nd dates rarely come around and even then it is with men I have been friends with for a while but nothing progresses.
Now I know what you are thinking she must be really ugly, or smell or be a downer to be around or a lot of other negative things but I am not! Ask my friends,oh wait I am keeping this anonymous, okay then just trust me! I am actually a pretty cute girl, I run, practice yoga, love photography, my family, friends and kids. Huh oh there I said it I love kids, maybe too much for some people. My dream in life since I was 6 years old was to be a mom. I never thought about going to college and getting a degree and ever entering the work force but alas that is all I have been able to do for the past 11 years. I dreamed of being married at 21 and having 3.5 kids by now. Many say that is my problem I want it too bad but did anyone ever tell Mariah Carey , "you know hun, maybe you should stop thinking about becoming a famous singer and then it will happen, then you will get your big break". Come on people I cannot just stop thinking about it, I can't and why should I? I always hear it will happen when you least expect it....really people I'm at the point now I just think it will never happen. If no one has wanted to be close to me before, how can it change.It is sad to lose the hope but I think as you read about my experiences you will see where I am coming from. My stories entertain my married friends, single friends and all in between to no end they are intrigued as well as stumped.
Hmmm so where to start? Lately I have been balancing 3 different men and when I say balancing I mean texting. I have been on a date with all three and one dropped out pretty quickly, sadly I'll start there. One of my close friends met him at her place of work. I think she had a little crush on him but since she is married she thought of me! S she texted me immediately and asked if she could give him my number. I was like why not! This was a Friday and amazingly enough he called me Monday! Amazing I thought, most guys I have tried to set up on blind dates these days demand to see pictures of my friends or take the number and never call but he didn't even ask about my looks and called me, points for him! We chatted a bit and set up a date for Saturday night! I did not want to get my hopes up with him so I stayed focused on my two other guys as the week passed. He called me early on Saturday to make sure we were good to go and we talked quite a bit, It was easy and fun! Oooo this boy is good looking, I was pretty happy when I opened my door that night. He was so nervous I had given him a fake address or something. He had never been on a blind date before.
The conversation was easy and fun. At dinner we talked and laughed about our families, friends, embarrassing moments, our time spent in different countries serving missions for our church, books and religion, it was awesome. Seriously my best date ever! There were times out food was in front of us but neither of us were eating because we were so intrigues by the conversation. I made him laugh out loud a couple time which I always love to do. He ordered Prime rib just so I could try it. He was great...so he took me home after dinner. I was a little sad it was still kind of early but what do ya do? So he walked me to the door and we stood and talked for a minute. It was so awkward because the angle we were standing at the light was behind him so I could barely see his face. Then it is hug time...awkward! lol he even stepped on my toes..whatev! Then he says "I had a great time, I guess I'll call you..." I say "that would be great!" and he leaves....welp it has been a week and a half and I've heard nothing from him...
So as always this leaves me wondering what went wrong? Any ideas?
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