I don’t even know where to begin I seem to have men popping up all over the place. Let’s see a friend texted me and asked if she could give a great family friend my number. I heard he is new in town and 32ish and so great ….we’ll see . Then there is a guy I am going to call Andy Bernard! He is someone I have known for 4 years now. We briefly dated 3 years ago but I think I freaked out for the past 3 years I tried to convince myself it wasn’t so but it is true! He is not a member of my faith he is 11 years older than me and I have never been in a relationship, which equates to freaked out, out of my mind. We didn’t talk much over the following years and he loves to make me feel bad about it every chance he gets. I couldn’t talk to him mostly because whenever we did I felt terrible. I could tell in his eyes how much he liked me and it hurt. So any hoodle (ya that just happened) recent events have transpired, I thought he broke up with his girlfriend to be with me but it has just been a long mess. He hurt his back and is having surgery this week. Long story short he doesn’t want me to see him in the pain he is in but his ex-girlfriend can apparently and any other friend of his but nope not me. Secretly hoping when he is all recovered I will be dating someone exclusively so I can say “you took too long...so sad too bad” I know I am mean but what the heck???
Al update…there isn’t much. I went to my parents for the holiday weekend and he went to his. We texted a bit he mentioned having a story to tell me next time we saw each other and also talked about our next run but we didn’t get to chat at church because he is a busy man being the elders Quorum President and all…sigh. Hurting my heart waiting…
Then there is who we will call Troy, you know from Community? Love him!
So this guy Troy and I have known each other since oh August. We have chatted a couple times but nothing too exciting. Now I promised to be honest in this blog so I have to tell you all my thought. This guy is great he is fun to talk to and just a great guy but he has terrible teeth. Shallow I know and I have liked many a different looking dudes but this might be a deal breaker but I am trying to keep an open mind. So remember the night Al stole the girl’s seat to sit by me well we were at Troy’s house. Troy and I were the only ones who had seen 500 Days of Summer. A great movie I might add. So on Sunday he and I had a little conversation about how much we love the reality vs expectations scene in the movie. Where they do a side by side viewing of the main characters expectations of the night but then on the other side it showed what in reality happened. So many times in life I head off on a date or to a party just knowing this is the night that is gonna be magical, romantical and all that jazz and this is how it will play out and without a fail it never works out!
So when Tuesday rolled around and Al didn’t have a response for my question of are we gonna be more than friends I texted Troy and said “I just had one of those reality/expectations moments and it bombed” he said “Ah man bummer! But perhaps you can have a bit of fun imagining it put into a film side by side! But ya that always sucks” (cute) So any ways Saturday night rolls around and he text me “Yo you in town” (very gentlemen like) and I guess he wanted to invite me to an Italian themed night…not clear if it was a date or a group of people but cool. I couldn’t go my family had Christmas early…yes in November. So Sunday rolls around my sister Kristen came with me and in Sunday school I left a seat empty next to me in hopes of Al joining me but instead Troy beat him too it. He flirted and was silly. I really haven’t experienced that much it was way fun and we talked about how he doesn’t take naps.
Cut to after my Sunday nap I text him and tell him how great my nap was he text me back and says he was just going to text me he actually took one as well…more flirting and I am in shock…where are these boys coming from? And it is so fun but it still so lonely none are progressing and is there hope?
I know my answer should be yes and in relief Society yesterday I preached of hope but it is sooooooooo hard let me tell you! I know we all have our struggles and I know it is nice to read about others…so hope you enjoyed my newest rant
I totaly get the hope thing....its easier to tell some one to have hope...then to have it your self! But it is noce to read about others...it makes you feel alittle more normal!
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